i know that i don’t use tumblr that often
in fact, i don’t even blog anymore
but i just want to record this day down
today i realised
that in life, i cannot rely on anybody
because when you do, you put alot of hope in the person
and when he or she disappoints you
you feel betrayed
and this vicious cycle makes you lose hope in everybody
thus the lesson learnt is
to never ever entrust your entire capacity of hope in one person
but i don’t like this lesson learnt
i don’t want to step out into this complicated world
i used to feel safe in my simple world
where life was simply happy
i don’t want to join the war of malice and hatred
i don’t want to be just another warrior in the battle of mankind
why do i not belong to a world where everybody thinks of others
everybody’s kindhearted, unselfish and just plain nice
why is it that people around me are teaching me to distrust others
why do we have to only take people’s words with a pinch of salt
telling ourselves that there may be ulterior motives in what he or she is doing
must i really be like that?
when i was younger,
i wished i lived in the faraway tree (enid blyton)
though there are unkind people there as well,
but the good will always triumph.
and the bad usually becomes good.
okay i am ranting i don’t know what i am saying
my thoughts are very disorganised
tonight’s just one of those nights i guess
tomorrow will be better i know
or. maybe. not.
ohwells…
goodnight cold night
please warm my heart tomorrow
before it dies in the cold.







